Regression Depression

Regression man....it sucks!  And to make things worse, an appeal for more ABA has gotten me another rejection and another doctor's appointment with the 'ABA-doctor-in-charge-of-how-many-hours-you-get'.   I can't climb out of this regression depression.  The bad news seems to continually come.  I really keep trying to count my blessings but then I'm physically being pulled and tugged and my positive thoughts go out the window.  How many more years are going to be like this?   What am I doing wrong?  What have I done to cause this latest round?  The questions keep coming and the solutions are ever elusive.  All I know is that more work is ahead of us.  There is much to be done.  AGAIN.