Thursday, March 29, 2012

I Try



I wonder if some might read this blog thinking…."Why does she think she can say [anything] about Autism?"  I would say to them,  "I'm just a mom who has had family members with the disorder, an ex-spouse with the disorder, and 2 children with the disorder."  I want to share information and what I know or what I have found out.  Occasionally, I have information that can help someone.  And I like to help.  That's why I'm blogging.

Sometimes I try to be helpful on the Autism Networking sites.  I think that might get me in trouble.  Especially when people have such strong opinions about the disorder and how to treat it, how to talk about it, and how to do anything about it.  I post articles, videos, a study……make a few comments I think are non-bias and all the sudden everyone has claws out ready to go.  So, maybe I'll save those for my blog.  Hopefully I won't inadvertently offend anyone here.

I just emailed one of my son's old therapists in Utah to update her on his progress.  I wonder if therapists get annoyed with updates, or if they like to know how they have affected a little life.  They definitely have an effect on my life.  And I will never forget them.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Hare Loss




Life with 2 kids on either side of the spectrum is interesting.  I've mentioned my son a lot but my daughter, not so much.  She's brilliant and reads everything she can get her hands on.   I caught her reading this article in the magazine "Mind Floss."   Thank heavens she didn't ask me any questions and "the Easter Bunny" can pay a visit on Easter.  I was glad that didn't add to my stress which is literally causing me hair loss.  It's sad but true.  The lady at the wig store was very nice.  Her name is Susie at Wells Wigs Unlimited

Alphabet Song

I cannot say enough good about Building Bridges and ABA therapy.  My son was not talking....now look at him!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Other's Shoes

 I wrote this today as my status on My Autism Team.

"Eh, today is one of those days.....I'm tired of the battles I can't EVER back down from or I can't keep control of my child(ren), I'm tired of diaper changes every 2 seconds, I'm tired of fighting to spoon feed 3 times a day, I'm tired of being pulled EVERYWHERE every 2 seconds, I'm so tired of NO ONE waiting for me to use the restroom for 2 seconds, I'm tired of the financial hardships with no health insurance, I'm tired of going to the store because there's no one around to do it....I just...I cry "UNCLE"!!  To life!!  It's a pity party day.  I know we ALL have them.  Type some words to vent, get virtual hugs and continue on our life path that is so overwhelmingly rigid."

I try and write more informational posts.  I don't really like to "gripe" write because there is always someone who has it worse than you.  After I posted my whining, I was going to delete it, but a gal who has a 16 year old ASD son wrote on it.   Her story is that her 16 year old ASD son, had caused her problems within 10 minutes of her waking.  He's still not independent and she's still battling bathroom issues and feeding issues, as she has for the last 14 years.  Wow.  It puts things in perspective.  I feel bad for complaining.  The one thing I have going for me, at least for another couple years, is hope.  Hope I can get him as close to normal as I can before his developmental window closes.

It is true though.  Autism life IS rigid.  The kids, as all kids do, need routine.  But, the problem with our ASD children is that they are completely inflexible.  They get into routines that become outright rituals that MUST be done or their world will come apart.  I remember how bad my daughter was, but it's nothing like my son's is becoming.  He has started one such ritual, it begins with him screaming once we come inside the door, and progresses to him taking off his shoes, crying, bringing them to me and asking me, in his sounds, "help please" to put them back on.  I've waited SO LONG to hear words.... I totally cave at his request full well knowing I've just reinforced the negative behavior.  But I wanted to reinforce the words........
Some days, you just can't win.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

That's Kind of Cool...

I was quoted in a blog today from the co-founder of MyAutismTeam.....

the article is here.

That was kind of cool.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Signs Your Child Might Be Autistic

I'm frustrated.  I spoke with an old friend today.  I asked how his boy was doing.  He told me things like, "my child is two but not talking, like the other kids are", "my child has a short attention span...of, like, none" and "my child doesn't seem to want to play with other children."  "My child", says friend, "is a little slow to start speaking, socializing, but it will be okay."  What I want to do is scream....."get them help NOW!"  Those ARE the signs your child is having issues and may, more than likely, be Autistic! 
I admit, even I was in denial at first, thinking, "ya, he's slow, but I have a feeling he'll be okay."  The developmental discrepancy didn't seem that bad, at two, but as time went on, and the other children were stringing sentences together while my child had no words, I started to panic.  It was also when I learned about developmental windows.  The reason doctors and educators test children for milestones is because, if they don't hit those milestones by certain time periods, you lose the ability to teach them those skill sets.  The greatest time of brain development and growth comes in the early years of childhood.  That is why everyone [doctors, educators and Autism organizations] are pushing early detection and early intervention.  The kids have a much better chance at more normal, higher-functioning lives. 
So that is where I am today.  Frustrated, feeling completely powerless to warn people.  That is why I'm writing these thoughts down.  So maybe someone, somewhere will stumble upon my words and get their child the help they need sooner.  If you are one of those people, please check out my post on "Autism.  What You Need To Know."  It's a list of things I wish someone had told me to do when my son was 2.  We're doing great, and I'm glad I have him in ABA therapy and a small social preschool class at Building Bridges, but, how much farther could he be had I known then what I know now?
The other thing people need to know is that Autism treatment is expensive and many of us are going into great amounts of debt to get our child the help he or she needs.  If, laws were introduced to force the insurance companies to pay for treatment, everyone's premiums would go up by an average of 1% which starts controversy.  "Why should I have to pay for someone else's child?"  Well, I'd rather pay that extra 1% than the extra taxes it's going to cost to fund all of these Autistic children who are lower functioning because their parents couldn't afford the help they needed to get them higher-functioning and able-bodied tax paying citizens by their developmental windows.
It's all a train wreck unfolding before our eyes.  Thousands of children will turn 18, needing Social Security and State and Federal social programs in order to live.  All of us in the Autism world can see it.  Why can't everyone else?  Well, one day they will.  Then who will they blame?

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Walk In The Park


A walk in the park.


I don't think I've said much about the negative aspects to having an ASD child.  Especially one on the moderate to lower end of the spectrum.   A lot of times having ASD children is not a "walk in the park."  Unlike the fun my son and I had at the park today.

Lately I've been dealing with a very inconvenient, annoying, loud, aggressive behavior.  Every time we come home, from the park, therapy, shopping, my son doesn't want to leave the car.  For a while I was carrying him up the stairs as he kicked and screamed to get him into the house, staying calm and talking to him about how "we have to get out of the car" and "we will go in the car again."  Then, I tried a different approach by leaving him in the car (don't worry, it's in the climate controlled secured garage) with all doors open so he could walk into the house when it pleased him.  This has not worked either.  It has, however, allowed me some free time to blog and/or clean.
I've thought of all the possible causes....sickness, chronic ear pain, getting the process of "out of the car" in the "wrong (according to my son)" order, not letting him try to undo his seat belt, not letting him close doors, not letting him push the button to shut the garage door.......I've thought of and tried everything I can think of.  Now, I'm back to thinking the bad behavior is ear pain and taking him to the ENT tomorrow.  If that's not it, it's typical toddler behavior that I need to address with some kind of discipline or incentive.  If you do not have an ASD child, you will not understand this.....you can't scold, yell, "time out" or otherwise negatively discipline an Autistic child.  They are stubborn as a goat and they will win.  My success has been either being more stubborn than my child, or using an item as an incentive to do what I need him to do.  For example, my son has gone from a crib to a bed.  When it was "night night" time, I put him to bed, left the room, went downstairs to suddenly find him walking down after me.  I finally resolved this issue by staying upstairs, hidden behind his bedroom door, and every time he began to wander out, I directed him back in.  It's taken a while but he will stay.  As for my son's incentives, it's usually an electronic device like an iPod, or cell phone, or other digital toy.  Hey, you do what you can.

Autism Speaks


After a rough day it helps to remember certain moments you've had with your ASD child where you really had an opportunity to connect.  I documented such a time and it's on "Our Favorite Faces" in the photos section on Autism Speaks Facebook page.

Exploring

Lake Lacamas, Washington

It's been difficult to find things to do when it rains and rains and rains in Washington.  That is why I was SO GLAD to have a sunny day and the chance to go explore a small trail that follows the shoreline of Lake Lacamas near my home.  My Aspie loved the walk, commenting on the moss and ferns as we went, while my son (ASD) kept trying to run to the shore to throw rocks in.  Actually, it's a GREAT activity for your Autistic children, sitting by the water, letting them throw rock after rock in...but it should be done when it's WARM.  And we're not warm yet here.  Just be sure to be present around your child(ren) AT ALL TIMES!  Water is beautiful, but as I've seen so many times, it is deadly.  If you will be by a body of water with your Autistic toddler, or toddler or child in general, I'd recommend putting a life jacket on them while they play by the shore.  You can never be too safe!

Climbing The Walls


Climbing Black Velvet around Red Rocks in Las Vegas, NV


The title describes our cabin fever.  My son is climbing everything!  Chairs, refrigerators, cabinets, shelves…..it's getting very dangerous.  I was introduced to climbing not too long ago and I'm thinking I'd better get him to a climbing gym.  I've looked up climbing gyms that offer programs for Autistic children in the Portland, OR/Vancouver, WA area, but near as I can tell, they don't exist.  I'm going to contact ASD Climber Foundation to see if I can find something or maybe help start a chapter.  Maybe after a few phone calls I'll find one. There is a program in Salt Lake City.  (Ironic considering I moved from Ogden.)   Here is the link to Rock On!, should you live in Utah and care to participate.  I hope I can find my son something.  If nothing else, it would get the energy out of him and get us both a good night's sleep!

Monday, March 5, 2012

My Social Needs Networking

(Looking down on the Columbia River from Camas, Washington.)

I moved to Washington so I could get better help for my children.  I have very few friends and family around and actually have no one to watch my children so I can get a much needed break.  Meeting people is difficult since my children are still little and take up so much of my time.  I would like to volunteer at my daughter's school, but I have no one to watch my non-verbal son so I can do it.  Balancing the needs of my higher functioning child with that of my lower functioning child are difficult and I don't think I'm doing a good job of it lately.  Especially when my non-verbal 3 year old is as sick as he often is.

I won't lie.  I'm tired.  I need adult time.  I need stimulating conversations and to be an independent person for awhile.  I've heard of respite services.  I even checked into a place that provides it.  The wait list won't give me a reprieve soon enough though.  I guess I'll keep trying.

For people who don't ever get a break, there is mental relief in virtual social networking.  Check out "groups" on Facebook and My Autism Team.  I'm sure there are more websites out there, but those are the two I'm currently on.  They are a great forum to share resources, experiences and treatments but a lot of people use the forum to vent because, there is no one who understands better than another parent of an Autistic child.


"Ha!"

 
I don't think I ever covered why I call this blog "Without Words" (or, technically, onewithoutwords).  I assumed it to be generally understood and covered in earlier posts, but just in case someone missed it, my son cannot speak.  He is, without words.  That is how I started the blog, my son could not speak at that time.  I'm happy to report he's trying to talk.  His "no"s are becoming VERY clear.   Also, when he wants attention, he says, "hi!" as he looks you straight in the eye.  The picture above is him with his "ha"or hat.  In regular world terms, it's a clothes hamper. 

I cannot say enough about how much ABA therapy has helped my son.  Building Bridges, in particular, has been wonderful just because they are not only teaching him skills, but they are working on his diction as well.  Some days I can't believe I found this place, nor can I believe that now, I'm getting him as much therapy as I am.  A big thank you goes out to my family who has rallied to help my little boy.  I am very blessed.


























































































                                                                                                                                                                                               

Thursday, March 1, 2012

A Cause for Dogs

I had a Facebook friend send me a link to an Autistic "cause".  The motto went some thing like…. "this cause is to promote understanding, awareness, etc……. of Autism"   So I looked at it.  But the only "cause" I saw were promotions for therapy dogs.  The author, probably justifying the "real need" for her therapy dogs,  goes on and on about accepting Autistic kids for who and what they are and not trying to make them "normal."    It made me roll my eyes.  First off, 'way to promote your business under the guise of a cause lady,' second, who's normal, and third, Autistic children aren't normal…….that's what makes them Autistic.  Ugh….people.
Moving on….
I've been researching some possible grant opportunities for my wonderful people at Building Bridges.  I'm not finding much.  I can find organizations that will provide funding for schools back east, but nothing in the northwest.   It is getting discouraging.  What's even more discouraging is the fact that there are all these "link farms" when it comes to researching grants.  I have to go through so much to find legitimate websites, and legitimate websites that link appropriately.  It makes me mad.  I think, "Really?  You [the rat-dogs who own the link farm domains] have to link farm special needs stuff?"  Now THAT leaves me without words.  Woof.